Wednesday, December 12, 2012


This post is dedicated to YOURS TRULY and a friend who [indirectly] introduced this song to me.
[I think you know who you are..I downloaded this song from your previous site.]
The song, "Tearjerker" is from a pop punk band, Fenix TX.
Please don't ask me who are they, because I also don't have a clue! =D
This song is the ONLY one from this band that I know and listen to.
Cherish the lyrics..

"Tearjerker" - Fenix TX

Picture's on the wall
Just waiting there to fall
Still remind me
That painful holiday
Can almost hear you say
Please don't miss me
Too long...

What did I do wrong
Could've sung a different song
You were my tune
Make my heart believe
A want is not a need
And I'm all right without you
The days go by
The nights don't change
The stars still spell out your name
I will wait for you..!!

The world has let me down
Is it you're just not around
I've lost my reason
All the memories
Every smile you gave to me
You can keep them
The days go by
The nights don't change
The stars still spell out your name

I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you
I will wait for you

I will wait for days go by
And still I will wait for you


It makes me think of a very special person.
Whom I wish not to be reminded ever again.
But seeing his name in a friend's blog, makes my heart skipped a beat.
Knowing that he's doing alright with his life now.
And it hurts, thinking that we are not as close as we used to.
Damn I hate this feeling!
[Soooo "high school"...said Sereh.. =D]

Well, people..this is just my personal ramblings.
Suddenly I felt like sharing my melancholy mood today.
Hopefully it doesn't effect your mood..


p/s : eD, I reduced the file size..hope they are not as irritating as before.. I kinda like my Sbox lah.. hehehe

Tuesday, December 11, 2012


Dihimpit dicengkam rindu ini
Gerimis duka ku
Menggamit kenangan silam
Resah dan pilu menghampiri

Sunyinya malamku kelam
Pedih kemelut cinta
Dingin kelu bicara
Tuk mengungkap rindu

Sayang ku mungkir pada kejujuranmu
Menolak segala bahgia dihadapanku
Kasihku mungkir pada kata janjiku
Berlari aku jauh dari cintamu
Ku kesali

Dihanyut dilambung ombak lara
Sepiku berkelana
Melayari jiwa nestapa
Menggagahi rasa kesayuan

Leburlah harapan cinta
Namun kesetiaanmu
Kugenggam bagai hukuman
Mengheret langkahku

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta kita berakhir
Maafkan daku
Kerna ku memungkirinya

Maafkan daku
Kekasih hati cinta jadi begini
Maafkan daku
Ku mungkir bahagia



Now that's one sad love song, isn't it?
I rekindle my love for this song after the recent Anugerah Juara Lagu.
Hazami did well with his intrepetation of the song, which made me cried a little. :(

Hrmmm...lately I've been hearing a lot about break-ups too..
And coming from people who are close to me, I didn't really know how to react.
I didn't know what was I supposed to tell them?
How to ask them to be patient in the nicest or most appropriate way..

News 1
A few days back, I received a text message from my best buddy, H, saying that his relationship with a friend of mine ended.
I felt sad for H, because I was hoping that they'll end up together one day.
I love both of them, and I think they complete each other.
But I'm glad H took it well, saying that they weren't meant to be together in the first place.
[I understand his reason, but it's better to be left unsaid here. Too personal.]

News 2
My housemate, Y, told me a shocking news.
Putus tunang. How sad is that?
They have been engaged for more than 2 years.
Orang tua-tua kata, bertunang jangan lama-lama.
In this case I sympathized Y because she had to learn this the hard way.
But knowing Y, I personally think the break-up was for the better.
Her ex-fiance had never portrayed himself like a husband would-be.
i.e, caring for my housemate when she was sick, wishing her birthday, getting to know her parents better, getting to know her friends better, share his problems with her etc.
All he did was making Y cried alone in her heart.
Don't you agree with me? That the break-up was a better option for her?

News 3
But the saddest of all was a message from my brother, telling me about his friend who passed away because of leukimia.
His friend, Allahyarham Rafizul Elmi a.k.a Ali (STAR 9296) is my senior's husband.
The whole of last week, my friends and I had been keeping in touch with each other to share the sad news.
I really can't find the right words to say to her, but we strongly hope that K. Nani (TKC 9296) will get through this dugaan dari Allah dengan hati yang tabah.

But I envy H&Y.
That may sound selfish or rather harsh, or unappropriate, but frankly, I'm jealous.
Because, albeit the fact that they have broken up, at least they have been in love.
Once, twice, or in H's case, more than that.
Then again, it's just me being pathetic.


Saturday, December 8, 2012

WEIRD, am I??


On Monday, I received a text message from K Ruby saying that she has "tagged" me.
At that time I was clueless, so I just replied and promised that I would read her blog a.s.a.p.
Alas, I only managed to get online after my first class this morning.
Upon reading the post, I was dumbstrucked.

RULES: People who are tagged should write a blog post of 6 weird things about them as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. Don't forget to leave a comment that says 'you are tagged' in their comments and tell them to read your blog.


The task sounded so simple as I was reading K Ruby's 'weird' habits.
But then I found myself thinking hard about my own list.
[Thinking of how to choose ONLY 6 out of I-don't-know-exactly-how-many weird things about me. LOL]
Well, I'll be a sport and take up K Ruby's challenge.

Here goes.....~

1. I cried while watching "Legally Blonde 2". [Seriously..]

2. If I didn't see my nephews and niece for a week or two, I'd cry when I listen to their voice over the phone. [Baru anak saudara ni, kalau anak sendiri nanti???]

3. Unlike K Ruby, I'm quite a fussy shopper. I took about 2 months surfing the net for the best specification and best deal before I bought my new handphone. And if I like something, I usually bought ONE, because I easily get bored with something. [Economy, maaa..]
But when I went out shopping with my girl friends, I told them to buy basically EVERYTHING that they like. [They like shopping with me anyway..LOL]

4. I like this guy for ages, but still, I haven't got the nerve to confess about my feelings to him. [Weird x? Weird la, these days mana ada orang malu² kucing, kan? huhuhuhu]

5. I could go to sleep at 4 am and woke up at the usual 6 am alarm, and teaching the kids as usual at 8 am. [But then Qada' tidur tak ingat dunia laa after that. hehehehe..]

6. I promised to update my blog on regular basis but failed everytime. Don't you think it's kinda 'W.E.I.R.D', K Ruby? [ROTFL]

There you have it.
The not-that-weird stuff about yours truly.
And since the rules say I have to tag another 6 people, I'll be more than glad to do so.

And the nominees are..............
[Calon-calon nya adalah.......]
[since K Ruby didn't tagged you, may I take the honour...hehe..]
[curiousnya nak tau... ;)]
[6 je..I know you can give more but the rules said 6 only. =D]
[can you shorten the list to ONLY 6, eD? LOL]
[can you come up with 6 weird stuff about yourself? I doubt it-lah..]
[my dear, 6 is enough nak lagi? hehehe..]

Till then, take care friends.
Love to hear 'some weird stuff' from all of you.

Thursday, December 6, 2012

3MlmTnp( * )


I've never realized the significance of this song until today.
As always, I cherised the lyric of any songs best while I'm driving.
And for this song it's no difference..
Man, what's wrong with me??
Wasn't I supposed to be ignorant?

+ + + + +
Fiq (Mentor) - 3 Malam Tanpa Bintang.

Kasih.. maafkan diriku
Banyak dosaku padamu
Tidak terhitung jari jemari daku
Tak dapat dibilang bagai bintang beribu
Sukarnya diriku menebus kekhilafan yang lalu

Kasih.. engkau tak bersalah
Hanya hatiku yang buta
Tulus dan ikhlas kau korban jiwa raga
Dan tanpa belas ku buat kau kecewa
Ku tahu dirimu sukar melupakan segalanya

Tiga malam tanpa bintang
Dan diriku dihimpit penyesalan
Arah tuju kian fanaKerna hilangnya manira
Bagaikan siang diselubung gerhana

Kembalikan senda tawa
Pulangkanlah manis disenyum manja
Ku pahatkan keinsafan
Dan patrikan kesetiaan
Sehingga nadi menafikan nyawa
+ + + + +

Pa'chik (and everybody)..
Please bear with me for a few more days ok? ;p
I think this won't take long..
The personality 'transition' is not that easy as it seems to be.

Psssst.. Shambie darling..
Do excuse our extremely short date last night.
So short you only managed to finish only a slice of that finger-licking papperoni dip-licious pizza.
[some more with Nuqman around and the waiter who acted like he's chasing us away..LOL!!]


Tuesday, December 4, 2012



This Friday I'm off to Pantai Tanjung Chap *[which I don't have any idea where it is..yet..] with these three beautiful ladies a.k.a my bestest of friends.




Can't wait for our escapade, girls!!

Sunday, December 2, 2012



Yesterday I got nothing to do so I Google-d "FIZZY".
My blog was tenth in the list.. (and today ninth..LOL)
But I'm not going to brag about that.

The most interesting part is I found a blog.
What's so special about it, you asked?
The blogger's name is also Fizzy.
She's from Yorkshire, United Kingdom.
And guess what, the UK Fizzy is also a Primary school teacher.
Now how scary is that?

To Fizzy, here's to many,many great blogging days ahead..
Take care!


my OCD and i an my Drug test

i guess the main reason why i can't seem to be blogging on regular basis, for a long period of time, is because i think a lot. a fellow blogger, who's now a doctor, once 'diagnosed' me with "Obsessive Compulsive Disorder" (OCD). hehehehehe. when i write, i would proof read them over and over just to make sure everything's correct. the spelling, the grammatical part of the sentences et cetera. sometimes, on a rare ocassion, i would mentally plan what i want to write that day. i would read what i've written and would picture myself as the reader..would i be interested in reading what's written there or sell me fake urine!? I think to bring thc from the body quickly fail((
It would be better to order a synthetic urine here

i needed perfection in the work i'm doing. even if it's merely a blog.. a personal one to add to that. but being a teacher i guess, i need or have to write well, if not better than my students. lol. plus i personally think that since teaching, my english is deteriorating. things have been going the other way round. it's not my students' level of english that gets better, but mine is getting worse day by day.

this was told by my lecturer [who happens to be an ex-tkcian also..], on the day she interviewed me for my PJJ course, that i need to get out from my school, because my students are making my command of english worse. hehehe. perhaps i'm not much of a exemplary teacher, that's why they are not making any grave progress. lol. but in a way, it does affect me a bit. speaking and writing wise, i'm not as confident as i used to be.

so, my point is.. this OCD thing had an effect on me as a blogger/writer. as the process becomes longer, i slowly feel lazier to write. so, this time around i'll put my foot down and just write whatever comes to my mind. without ever thinking of the correct grammar or if it's interesting enough for the readers. [but sadly i still can't compromise on the spelling part. lol]

oh, and one other thing about blog. i think it works 2-way. when i write, a reader will read. and if that reader has a blog, i will read his/hers. then the reader will leave a comment. so do i. hence, when i am not capable of doing any of those [i.e. leisurely read + comment in others' blogs], i tend to stop writing in mine too.. because i think it's not fair for them to write and write some more yet i couldn't read their entries and leave my p.o.v. to be fair, i just stop writing so that they don't have anything to comment in my blog in return.

but i guess, writing is in my blood. no matter how hard i try, at the end of the day, it still gives me a sense of satisfaction.

a SUPER WEIRD way of thinking? i think it's confirmed now i have OCD.

Wednesday, November 7, 2012



I'm a big believer of the Fate Allah has bestowed on us.
Yesterday, it came unexpectedly true to me.
Patience has always been one of my virtues, and pays.
I have to restrain myself from elaborating about it further.
As I promised myself not to talk to other people about it anymore.
Enough said that it brought tears of joy to me.

Ironically, a small spot in my heart ached too.. +sigh+

Feel like I'm talking nonsense? LOL
I just can't wait for today's school hours to end actually.
It's my students' last day of UPSR.
And tomorrow it's finally MERDEKA for yours truly..
Yeayyyyyyy!!! Hehehehehehe..

Monday, November 5, 2012

♥ is ♥


♥ ♥ ♥

Ada Cinta - Acha Septriasa & Irwansyah

Ucapkanlah kasih..
Satu kata yang kunantikan
Sebab ku tak mampu membaca matamu
Mendengar bisikmu

Nyanyikanlah kasih..
Senandung kata hatimu
Sebab ku tak sanggup mengartikan getar ini
Sebab ku meragu pada dirimu

Mengapa berat ungkapkan cinta
Padahal ia ada
Dalam rinai hujan, dalam terang bulan
Juga dalam sedu sedan

Mengapa sulit mengaku cinta
Padahal yang terasa
Dalam rindu dendam, hening malam
Cinta.. terasa ada…

♥ ♥ ♥

Am feeling a bit down today because I've been listening to this song non-stop since morning.
To tell you the truth, I'm not a big fan of the movie "My Heart" starring Acha Septriasa and Irwansyah.
[It was a complete turn off pour moi, I didn't even try to watch the film.]
I like the OST, but not the way they acted in that movie.
Irwansyah for me, seemed so "lembik" in it. [pardon me if that's harsh for any Irwan's fans out there].

But the upcoming movie "Love is Cinta" is very intriguing for me.
Then again it's not because of the two lovebirds [Acha+Irwan] but I'm looking forward to watch the co-actor Raffi Ahmad in action.
Seeing the film's TMO [the making of] and watching Raffi's character, touched my heart.
The theme of this new movie is for me a bit more interesting than the previous "My Heart".
Not only it's a tiny little bit more serious, but the theme is so close to me.
Well, it's a story about an unrequited love.
How familiar is that to yours truly?
That's like a synonym to me!


p/s: Achik sila beli speaker or bergegas ke CC sekarang. LOL

Friday, November 2, 2012



It's approximately 1.15 am now.. and I don't feel sleepy at all even though I spent the whole day window shopping yesterday[15/12] with Shambie..
Correction. I was the one who ONLY did window shopping whereas Mademoiselle Shambie [who just got her 2 and a half month lump sum salary] shopped till she dropped!

Dropped her bank account low, that is! Hehehehehe..

It was fun seeing other people shop.. watching the RM50 notes slipping out one by one.
But truth be told, I forced myself to be's a lo--------ng way before the next pay.
So, yesterday it was only just another day at KB Mall, 'spying' on what to buy next week..
[I've quite a long list of products from The Body Shop alone... sheisshhhh~]

Enough ramblings about the boring stuff I did at home, I was actually speechless reading this forwarded email from TKCOGA.
Perhaps you have read this somewhere.. but I'll just share it anyway..
I couldn't find the ORIGINAL article though.. Google-d it, but to no avail.
Please read, minus the pictures which are supposed to accompany this article, it's worth reading.
Makes me so proud of such devoted Muslim leader.. Ahmadinejad.
Actually he kinda reminds me of Kelantan's [or pehaps Malaysia's??] most respectful leader, Tuan Guru Hj Nik Abdul Aziz.
His modesty, I find it similar to what Tuan Guru is.
Besides that, their will to change the lives of the citizens whilst maintaining the honour of Islam, IMHO, are equally strong.
This is definitely my own personal judgment, feel free to voice out your opinion if you think otherwise.

The Life of Iranian President Ahmedi Nijad'

The Fox News TV (USA) asked the Iranian President Ahmedi Nijad;

'When you look into the mirror in the morning what do you say to yourself'?

He answered: I see the person in the mirror and tell him 'Remember,
you are no more than a small servant, ahead of you today is the heavy
responsibility, and that is to serve the Iranian nation'.

Ahmedi Nijad, the Iranian President who astonished many when he first
reached to the office of the Presidency by donating all the high valued
Iranian carpets to one of the mosques in Tehran by replacing them with the
low cost ordinary carpets.

He observed that there was a huge extravagant lounge for receiving and
welcoming the VIPs and he ordered it to be closed and asked the protocol
office to arrange for an ordinary room only with the wooden chairs.

On many instances he joins the cleaning staff of the municipality
for cleaning the streets in the area where his home and the Presidency are located.

Under his authority whenever he appoints any minister to his post he
gets a signed document from him with many points, particularly
highlighting that he shall remain poor and that his personal and his
relatives accounts will be watched and the day he leaves the ministry
shall be with dignity, and therefore it is not lawful for him or his
relatives to take any advantage of his office.

First of all he declared himself for all the 'Big' wealth and the
property he owned was a Peugeot 504 car, model 1977, an old small
house inherited from his father 40-years ago in one of the poorest
zones in Tehran. His accounts with a zero balance and the only money
comes in to his a/c was from his salary from the university as a
lecturer with an amount of US$ 250 only.

For your information the President still lives in that same house. This is
all what he owns; the president of one of the world's important countries;
strategically, economically, politically and with regard to its oil and

He even doesn't take his personal salary with the argument that all the
wealth belongs to the nation and he is the safeguard over it.

One of the things that impressed the staff at the presidency is the bag
the President brings with him every day, which contains his breakfast;
some sandwiches or bread with olive oil and cheese prepared by his
wife and eats and enjoys it with all happiness.

One of the other things he changed was his personal carrier 'the
President's Aircraft' to a cargo aircraft in order to save the
spending from the public treasury and he ordered that he will be
flying with the ordinary airline in the economy class.

He organizes meetings every now and then with all the ministers to know
their activities and efficiency and he closed down the office of the
Manager of the president and any minister can enter to his office without
any permission. He also stopped the welcome ceremonies like the red
carpet, the photo session or any personal advertisement or respect of
any kind while visiting any place in the country.

Whenever he has to stay in any of the hotels he asks them to make sure not
to give him a room with any big bed because he doesn't like to sleep on
beds but rather likes to sleep on the floor on a simple mattress with a

Refer to some of the photographs which also confirm the above.

The Iranian president is sleeping in the guest room of his house after
getting away from his special guards who follow him wherever he goes and
photo is taken by his small brother according to the Wifaq Newspaper which
published this photo and the next day the photo was published in most of
the world's newspapers and magazines and particularly the Americans.

During the prayer you can see that he is not sitting in the first row.

And the final photo is of his dining room where the president is busy
eating his simple meal.
* * * * *

It may sounds/looks too good to be true, and is arguable.
But let's say it's for real, don't you think he's an awesome leader?
I shall look for the origin of this article..and the photos** too.
But upon reading the email, I recalled Pa'chik's entry regarding our ministers' monthly salary..

I laughed hard. Sheepishly.

If there's an army of Ahmadinejads in our country, I guess we'll be living in Heaven on earth.
Then again, that will be too good to be true too, right?

**Just as I was about to'report' to Pa'chik that I already posted an entry, I was shocked to see that he ALSO posted an entry on Ahmadinejad. [Macam janji-janji pulak..hehehe..] Oh, and I managed to get the photos at last.

Friday, October 5, 2012


I almost forgot how great it is just to be with friends.
Hanging out together, chatting about stuff that doesn't really matter to the world [read: gossip!]
It was a bliss last school break though, as I got the chance to do those stuff.
Since I've been working [4th year now], I don't think I get to 'enjoy' much.
Except during weekends with Shambie [when she leaves her beloved Terengganu] and Aboon [when she's on leave from work/study].
Other than that, internet is my sole source of entertainment and joy.
Oh, and my niece and nephews that I had to babysit.

I'm glad I decided to meet up and catch up with those closest to me while I was in KL last week.
These are the highlights of my [as Mache and everybody like to put it] rather SHORT visit..;

  • house warming @ fqrl's. I got to meet [finally!!] an old friend with a totally new 'image'. Yeah, he got me stunned and out of words. It was definitely a great rendezvous even though I was being picked on [and 'betrayed'] most of the time. Oh, did I mention we were 2 hours late to the house warming? All thanks to Pak Lah's announcement on oil price hike earlier that day.
  • 'lepak' @living room with Shaxu while waiting for Idya [before going to fqrl's crib]. I still can't forget the yummylicious popiah basah Shaxu brought me and the fact that we were watching RTM at that moment. LOL. Oh, we were busy gossiping anyways. :D
  • adhoc lunch date with Asni + Adrin. A short meet-up slash catch-up session, but it was worth it. It felt like yearssssss since I last saw Asni.
  • a VERY short date with Nanakuhhhh.. too bad I had to rush home that day. But @least I was able to get myself an MNG purse on her advice, sadly we didn't have time to shop for shoes..huuhuhuhuhu..
  • I got to meet 2 bloggers. Kak pB and ninadewe [from Indonesia]. Had breakfast with kak pB, but only spent a few minutes with Nina..both of us had prior plans.
  • lastly, the NEVERENDING phone calls to Idya.. mostly [if not ALL] asking for directions. FYI, I got lost multiple times, and yeah it took me 'hours' to get to a place that shoud have taken only a few minutes according to Idya.. :P Oh, yes. I got HONKED dozens of times too.

All in all, I had a splendid time even though it was limited.
I apologize to those who weren't informed that I was coming.
As I said, it's work related [even though I didn't mention anything about it], and to find time to actually meet those mention above, amazed yours truly as well.
I ended up with a back ache anyway..I guess I really pushed myself that last day.

Okay, Mache and Fqrl.. I get your point.
I think I should do this more often. :p


Wednesday, October 3, 2012



So sorry for the long silence..
[not that anyone cares..]
I've been busy with things at work.
The usual stuff that need to be done before school ends.
Hence, I couldn't find time to blog or even blog-hopping...
[I miss reading pa'chik's ramblings.. Ms Istanbul's stories.. et cetera..]

Alhamdulillah, my kids bring a smile to me today.
2 of my kids scored 5As in their UPSR examination.
That's BIG news for us teachers in such small school like mine.
Sadly, my school Headboy got 4As and 1C.. his C was for my subject!
Huhhuhuhuhuhu.. felt like crying..
But seeing his I'm-already-satisfied-with-those-As face, I smiled.
I know my kids had done their best.

Alright, I guess that's all for now.
Still got some work to do before going back tomorrow.
Take care!!


i know i have not been blogging for ages. those who've asked, and being concerned about my whereabouts, i cannot thank you enough. i am touched. it's freedom from upsr today. my kids have ended their 'fight' towards excellence at approximately 1 p.m. today. i hope they did well in their english papers.

i have been busy. juggling time for work and study. as i told miss B, and those who know me, i'm the worst in time management. i like to do things at the very last minutes. so in the end, it's me who'll suffer. sigh~

sorry, couldn't care less of the correct punctuation or grammar. too lazy to knock on the 'shift' keypad or check the grammatical errors. i'm off to kampung today.will have a long break from school as i'm going to KL this coming sunday for a meeting.

my dearest friends, i'll be staying at hotel impian morib. i know it's a far far away land from KL, so, please drop by if you want to meet up. or better yet, 'kidnap' me and take me for a raya shopping spree! lol.

that's all for now. will be back with more stories from now on. i have to start writing more i think. it'll be a great help for my assignments. ;)

take care people!!!

Monday, September 10, 2012

tagged by miss B [thanks for your thoughts!]

Mari menjawab soalan

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
>> seorang yang tak wujud.. adoi.. pathetic 1st Q.

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
>>bunyi kipas dlm kelas ni dan lagu-lagu ballad korea di media player.

3. Mungkin saya patut:
>> stop jawab ni and habeskan kerja?!

4. Saya suka :
>>apa yang orang biasanya x suka.

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
>>are those i cant live without.

6.Saya tak paham :
>> kenapa orang korea punya kulit halus. not that pernah sentuh, tp nmpk macam..

7.Saya kehilangan :
>> semangat untuk berBLOG.

8.Ramai yang berkata :
>> beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.. but.. in reality?? kurus=cantik? huhu..

9.Makna nama saya :
>> cahaya yang memelihara [keamanan? anak?!!]

10.Cinta itu adalah :
>>satu rasa yang membuatkan rama2 berterbangan di dalam perut. hahah..[direct translation neh]

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
>>berharap blog ini di update.
12.Saya akan cuba :
>> jawab soalan2 ni sampai habes..

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
>> selamanya tu PERKATAAN, bukan AYAT.

14.Telefon bimbit saya :
>>second hand, dan ianya dibeli di jepun oleh mizot..

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
>> tunggu alarm 6.30 bunyi..[usually terjaga awal]..chewah~

16.Saya paling meluat apabila :
>> seriously cant think of one right now. baikkah daku??

17.Pesta/Parti adalah :
>> hingar bingar,imho. which i don't really fancy.

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
>>ikan-ikan di pulau redang.

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
>> 16.form four.enough said. ;)

20.Hari ini :
>> students saya exam bahasa inggeris. dan ada yang dapat full marks utk mcq. yay!

21.Malam ini saya akan :
>> masak dan tengok tv seorang diri.

22.Esok pula saya akan :
>> ke sekolah untuk kelas tambahan..

23.Saya betul-betul inginkan :
>> percutian di Seoul tahun depan menjadi kenyataan.

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
>> [dalam hati berkata] wah, jerawat itu mesti di cover!

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
>>apa kes arked?? shopping complex of kosss..

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
>> jepun

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap:
>> gelap.

28.Makanan segera adalah :
>> tak elok untuk kesihatan

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
>>"kelas Sabtu ni, pukul 9 sampai 11,eh?!"

30.Siapa yang anda nak Tag?
>> kalau nak jawab silakan...

Monday, September 3, 2012



Wishin' and Hopin' by Ani DiFranco

Wishing and hoping
And thinking and praying
Planning and dreaming
Each night of his charms
That won’t get you into his arms

So if you’re looking
To find love that you can share
All you gotta do is
Hold him and kiss him and love him
And show him that you care

Show him that you care just for him
Do the things that he likes to do
Wear your hair just for him
Cause you won’t get him
Thinking and praying,
Wishing and hoping

Wishing and hoping and
Thinking and praying
Planning and dreaming
His kisses will start
That won’t get you into his heart

So if you’re thinking
Of how great true love is
All you gotta do is
Hold him, and kiss him
And squeeze him and love him
Just do it
And after you do
You will be his

Show him that you care
And just for him
Do the things that he likes to do
Wear your hair just for him
Cause you won’t get him
Thinking and praying
Wishing and hoping just



Was just enjoying the pictures in Asni's blog when this song came into mind.
So happen, Idya posted the same song [minus the audio, just the lyric] in her blog not so long ago.
I guess this song is one of tkc9600 all-time favourite songs.
Not only the melody is good, the lyric is somewhat so catchy. :)
Talk about unrequited love.. Sigh~

And a few days back I was on the phone with Mlle. Shaxu.
She was really surprised actually to know that I still have feelings for him. LOL.
Dear,I didn't tell you all this while because you guys have been really close.
And another fact is that I know it's never gonna happen anyway.
I'm not hoping.. at least not anymore~

Hence, this song is just to ease my mood.
Am feeling rather 'romantic' upon seeing Asni+Asib's pictures in Langkawi. :D
[this song is dedicated to both of you.. so when's the baby coming?? hahahaha.. I can't wait!]

I hope it ends here. And by 'it' I meant the longing for him.
Scold me or whatever you want, but being me, I just can't find the courage to walk up to him and say I like him.


Thursday, August 9, 2012


Before I go on with today's entry, let me tell you one thing.
Yes, I'm so angry today.
I'm really furious after reading Pa'chik's blog.
No, please don't get me wrong.
I'm not mad at him, I'm furious after reading the article he pasted in his latest entry.

How low can we go as a Malaysian Muslim?
Just to prove that we are living in a so-called developed country, to prove that we are open-minded, to show the world that we are capable of doing everything.. we have to put Islam away?
MasyaAllah.. I think having one 'Lina Joy' is enough.

Read this:

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Bartenders Whip Up A Storm At Contest

Photos by RICKY LAI

Third placed: Erik whipping up his Belveryna and Eredevleb Framboise Tea Martini cocktails.
THEY shook, stirred and dazzled the crowd as they whipped up two cocktails – a martini and a long drink – within a few minutes at the Belvedere Bartender Competition.

The competition hosted by Belvedere Vodka at Frangipani bar offered an opportunity to celebrate the skill, creativity and artistry of Malaysia’s bartenders as well as Belvedere Vodka’s belief in the art of mixing the perfect cocktail.

Ten bartenders from various five-star hotels and night outlets competed for the title of Belvedere Bartender of the Year 2007 (Malaysia).

The winner will participate in the Regional Bartender Event in Hong Kong with an opportunity to go on to the Belvedere International Bartender Competition in London.

“Each cocktail must feature one of the three types of Belvedere Vodka – Belvedere Pure, Belvedere Cytrus or Belvedere Pomarancza,” said Riche Monde Malaysia Belvedere Vodka brand manager Jeff Chong, whose company distributes the brand in Malaysia.

“Judging will be based on taste, outlook (bartender’s presentation), presentation of drink, aroma and the name of the cocktail.”

Test of skill and creativity: Adzhar straining his cocktail mixture before pouring it into a martini glass.
The panel of judges comprised Moet Hennessy Spirits marketing manager Andrew Khan, Belvedere Vodka regional brand ambassador Sam Jeveons and Klue magazine managing director John Lim.

“We’re also hosting a cocktail party, which will offer guests and Belvedere lovers the chance to have fun and enjoy some drinks,” Chong said.

Riche Monde Malaysia’s corporate clients, media members and celebrities like Marion Caunter, Wong Sze Zen, Stephanie Chai and Will Quah attended the invitation-only event.

Daphne Iking hosted the event while Camelia entertained guests with a few songs.

“Belvedere literally means 'beautiful to see.' A fitting name for such an alluring vodka,” Iking said during the opening of the event.

Delectable: Alvey sampling Adzhar’s Smooth while Iking looks on.
“The moniker is in fact inspired by the historical Belvedere Palace in Warsaw, former home to Polish royalties and presidents. Continuing a Polish tradition reaching back 600 years, Belvedere Vodka is handcrafted in small batches using centuries-old techniques to ensure the highest quality, “ she said.

Mohd Adzhar Ahmad, who has been bartending at Qba in The Westin Kuala Lumpur for two years, was declared the competition’s winner with his long drink named Pomarancza Ozie and martini called Smooth.

Fellow Qba bartender Rizal Junior Johari won second place with his Capito long drink and June’s martini.

Mohd Erik Fiza Zulkifle from The Loft KL was third with his Belveryna and Eredevleb Framboise Tea Martini cocktails.

Vodka fan James Coathup tried Erik’s Belveryna and described it as “fresh, fruity and delicious”.

“This drink is something I’d actually buy. I usually go for drinks like vodka cranberry and vodka lime soda when I’m out for drinks with friends,” the Australian said.

Channel [V] VJ Alvin Pulga, better known as Alvey sampled Adzhar’s Smooth and declared that its smooth taste lived up to its name.

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The 1st,2nd and 3rd place are all Muslim.
Good job, guys. 'Well done!'

Don't they have better things to do?
Is getting a job that hard they had to settle being a bartender instead?
Come on, is not like you're making 'teh tarik' or what ok?
MasyaAllah.. MasyaAllah..

If any of you readers think that they aren't doing any wrong, or perhaps you're trying to be positive, thinking that they might just mingle with vodka,beer,wine et cetera without consuming it, [which I doubt because how would they know the mixture tastes good if they don't try it first??] ,well I hope this hadith will make you think twice.
Credits to pa'chik for putting this up, so that I can share with all of you who are reading.

Diriwayatkan oleh Ibnu Tarmizi dan Ibnu Majah;
“Rasulullah s.a.w. melaknat tentang arak, sepuluh golongan: (1) yang memerasnya, (2) yang minta diperaskannya, (3) yang meminumnya, (4) yang membawanya, (5) yang minta dihantarinya, (6) yang menuangkannya, (7) yang menjualnya, (8) yang makan harganya, (9) yang membelinya, (10) yang minta dibelikannya.”

I have yet to give my opinion on a local female actor who decided to shaved her head bald and now this??
MasyaAllah, it's neverending.
People seem proud to show they did something that is obviously wrong in Islam.
I really can't understand this.

I'm sorry this entry sounds so negative , but this I had to do.
I'm tired of reading about what these kind of people did to make others [non-Muslim] even more confused about Islam.
I may not be the best or the most suitable person to write about this, as I know I'm not a perfect Muslimah too, but Subhananallah..
This is just way too much.
I might just punch them in the face if I ever see them on the street.

Oh well, for the record, shaving your head bald [for woman] is HARAM no matter how you put it [unless it's for medical purposes-lah..].
What does art got to do with hukum Islam anyway?
It doesn't make it HALAL, even though that's what you do for a living.
[And daddy showing his support by shaving his head too?? Come on!!!!!]
The same goes for men who wear earrings or chain/choker.
That's HARAM too. Period.




Things happen for a reason, and sometimes the reason is beyond our understandings.

I have my own reasons why I did what I did.. and most of the times I just need people to understand without questioning why.

Freedom is what I need but somehow I feel as if it's been taken away far from me, bit by bit till I'm suffocating.

Sometimes, I think being incognito to some is a blessing in disguise! sigh..
No explanation.


p/s: To 'anonymous' in the previous entry.. yes, I know Ustzh. Soliha.. :)

Wednesday, August 8, 2012


Today's weekly assembly was a bit chaotic.
Penolong Kanan HEM asked some of the students who were caught shoplifting @ the Kedai Sekolah to stay back after the assembly.
To my own surprise more than 10 students stayed back.
I couldn't refrain myself from letting my anger out.
In fact I felt like slapping those kids.
Thank God my patience stopped me.

Class started at 9.15 a.m today.
Was not in the mood of classroom learning, so I took the students to the TV room.
I did promise them to at least go and watch CD once a month and that's what I did since April's coming to an end and they have not been there yet for this month.
The kids watched "Disney's Magic English" today and it's so uplifting to see them learn something while having fun watching the cartoon.



putting on a fake smile.
listening to all of your stories.
i know you're not bragging, but damn.. 
it feels like you really are.

i was not happy,not at all.
but i pretended that i was.
i'm sorry if that was mean, but damn..
faking it is all i can do.

nur hafiza hj hasan -- fizhasan

Friday, August 3, 2012



Thanks for the visits these past few days, people..
Lately I'm busy with my kids' exam.. [UPSR trials to be exact..]
Hence no posts/entries from moi since the last one.. :)
InsyaAllah I'll be updating my blog a.s.a.p.
And am having a one-day course at the moment..

And err... pa'chik... everything's ok.


Thursday, August 2, 2012

my oh-so-beautiful night

it's 4 am now.. and i've just finished watching my second and last movie [for now].. i thank my two best friends for such a 'beautiful' movie that i saw just now. fqrl for suggesting it to shambie. and shambie for your effort to download the movie and burn it for me. ;) you guys are just the best!

the movie that took me by surprise for its sweetness and romance was none other than "The Notebook".. starring Ryan Gosling, James Garner et cetera.. well, you can always Google for more info regarding the movie, but in my humble opinion, the love story in The Notebook is so real and oh-so-sweet. it tells about a man who reads a notebook to his wife who's suffering from memory loss. their love for each other remains intact until their last a very old age.. perhaps too good to be true, but i can't stop wanting to have such a relationship while i was watching the movie. so sweet and beautiful..can't find more suitable words to describe it. gosh, got to see this movie again..and again..and again.. [plus there's the forever-hot James Marsden in it too..who never fails to make my heart smiles with his lovely dimples.. ;)] rotflol. oh, and Ryan Gosling didn't fail me either in this movie. he managed to look manly and macho, which i find it very difficult to imagine at first due to his boyish look. ah, what a movie.. got butterflies all over my tummy watching the actors..

the first movie that i saw, before The Notebook, was "Serendipity".. quite an old movie, but believe it or not, i haven't seen it even though i once had a huge crush on John Cusack back in the days when i was in college. this movie was not a disappointment either. though there were quite a few 'hindustani' scenes in the movie, but it was acceptable. perhaps it was just my mood.. i was feeling rather mellow and the 'theme' for last night's DVD session was ROMANCE. so, anything sweet and lovey-dovey was THE thing. [pa'chik sure tengah muntah reading this entry.. lol.. bear with me, ek pa'chik..]..

tomorrow, the theme's gonna be comedy slash cartoon, i guess. got "Kung Fu Panda" waiting to be watched and also The Rock's "Game Plan".. yeah, i am enjoying my year-end holidays now.. after a year's hard work, i think at least i deserve this much of an entertainment. oh, no.. ayam berkokok already.. it's 4.50 am.. gonna sleep now..


Wednesday, August 1, 2012


Out of reach, so far
I never had your heart
Out of reach, couldn't see
We were never meant to be

So much hurt, so much pain
Takes a while to regain what is lost inside
But I hope that in time
You'll be out of my mind
And I'll be over you


Today marks the end of everything I've felt all this while.


I know I'm being obvious to those who know what I'm talking about..
But please, bear with me for now.

Monday, July 2, 2012



(6 DEC 1995 - 6 DEC 2007)
May our FRIENDSHIP remains.. till death do us part.
[I couldn't even imagine how my life would be without you gals..]
12 years and counting!!
Love y'all so much!

* * *

(5 DEC 1995 - 5 DEC 2007)
Especially to my best buddy Fqrl... and eD,Mache,Toyonne,Anep,Lare.
Really glad our paths crossed!
Knowing you guys, adds colors in my oh-so-dull life.

Saturday, June 9, 2012



It's official.
It's finally been decided.
(read here.)
The place where I grew up and met friends who I can call family will finally be relocated to another location.
When I read that in Asni's blog yesterday, I felt as if I was being stabbed straight into my heart.
Some may think that I over-reacted given the fact that I somehow already knew this was coming sooner or later, but when it's officially announced, I almost cried.

TKC is not only a school for me [and each of us TKCians], but it's also a place where we learn all about life, love and most importantly friendship.
As I always say, the five years spent in Bukit Merbah was the best years in my life and nothing can take away the fond memories [and also bitter ones] I had there.
The college spirit may always be with us no matter we go, but it's not the same.
I just can't imagine if we're having our 10th year gathering [for example] at another place, not in our old school compound.
The feeling must be totally different.

But who am I to say what to do and vice versa.
I'm just a plain TKC Old Girl with our college spirit that'll stay with me till the day I die.
I'll be damned if they make our old school compound as another school.
[Like what happened to SAS and SDAR..]
Then again., this is just another rambling from me..~


Monday, June 4, 2012


A friend of mine depised the idea of placing the "SingingBox" in my sidebar.
He thought that it's very irritating.. Huhuhuhu..
Do y'all think so too?

The reason why I put the "SingingBox" is to share my current favourite mp3.
Or the kind of songs that I like to listen to.
No matter what the language is.. Mandarin, Korean, Spanish, Bahasa, English..
As long as the melody suits me, I'll fall in love with the song within seconds.
Just so you know, there's a "STOP" button there.
I beg you to just click on it if you think it bothers you.
(Do I sound angry? Hehehe..don't misunderstand me,ok? I'm not.)

What say you my other readers?
Shall I put away the "Box that Sings"...??
Do tell, if many of you detest the idea, then I'll delete it right away.

On a similar note, Asni said she tagged me.
Again. (Asni darling,'re really into this TAG thingy right??)
Hehehehehehe.. but I think I'll pass.
You don't mind, do you?
It's just that 2001 was not a 'joyful' or 'memorable' year for me.
When I was 18, I felt lost. Don't really know where I was heading to.
I think I've no fond memories that year, except my Kak Yong got married.

But, let me fill your curiousity with something quite similar to the task in that Tag game.
I happen to have a few songs that remind me of those special in my heart.

One Sweet Day (Mariah Carey&BoysIIMen)
- reminds me of you and all the Thoroughbreds 9600. I think this song was so popular back when we were in Form 1. You know, everytime I hear this song, I would always picture us going to the Dining Hall for breakfast, Prep Class, walking through the Lover's Lane in college, Friendship Day.. =) This is OUR song,kan?.

Smooth (Santana feat. Rob Thomas)
-this song never fails to remind me of Jasman Haris. Do you still remember him, Asni? The oh-so-cute SASian who came to our French Day and stole my heart away? Hahahahaha.. (Joking lah! Marah F****n nanti!) For the record, he's chubby now, you know. So the cuteness has gone with the wind-lah. LOL. But Jasman's a good friend, no doubt about it. His friendship, is definitely worth keeping. And as to why this song reminds me of him, I also don't know. Maybe he once told me it was his favourite.

Ku Impikan Bintang (Sean Ghazi)
- this song by Sean Ghazi reminds me of Kak Ruby. In fact, all of Sean's songs remind me of her. Why, because she wrote such wonderful entry about Sean in her blog and I got butterflies listening to Sean's voice and watching him in his music video. But the main reason is because Kak Ruby actually went through all the troubles to get me his CD (that time it was not yet available in KB, early 2007.) She called me to get my address and get it posted. Thanks, Kak Ruby. I was deeply touched..

Here Without You (3 Doors Down)
- Fqrl. This particular song reminds me of him. I guess it's because he introduced me to it. And I fell in love with the song on the spot. The lyrics have got nothing to do with him, me or our friendship but still, whenever I hear this song, I'll automatically think of him. A v.good friend and counselor/advisor.

Here Without You - 3 Doors Down

There you have it.
Hope this satisfies your curiousity,Asni darling.

Saturday, June 2, 2012



Did I ever mention I love ROBERT REDFORT so much??
For a man his age, I think he's HOT.
You don't think so??
Think again.


Apart from his good looks [albeit the fact that he goes for "nip/tuck" occassionally], he's one of my favourite actor of all time.
I would cry every time I watch him and Michelle Pfeiffer in "Up Close & Personal".
Reason being, he died in that movie.
I usually hate sad ending movies, but I made exception for this piece.
And just tonight, I managed to see him in "Indecent Proposal", with Demi Moore.
Again he made me cry.
No, he didn't die in this one in case you are wondering.
I cried because he was being a true gentleman, letting Demi go for another guy [who she was more in love with,and happened to be her husband.]
I know it sounds stupid, but I won't bore you with the whole storyline.
He's my man. Period.

When can I meet MY Robert Redfort?
He he he.


(Feel like vomitting?? Yes, you may do so now. LOL)

tagged by miss B

Mari menjawab soalan

1. Bekas kekasih saya adalah :
>> seorang yang tak wujud.. adoi.. pathetic ke? 1st Q.

2. Saya sedang mendengar :
>>bunyi kipas dlm kelas ni dan lagu-lagu ballad korea di media player.

3. Mungkin saya patut:
>> stop jawab ni and habeskan kerja?!

4. Saya suka :
>>apa yang orang biasanya x suka.

5.Sahabat-sahabat baik saya :
>>are those i cant live without.

6.Saya tak paham :
>> kenapa orang korea punya kulit halus. not that pernah sentuh, tp nmpk macam..

7.Saya kehilangan :
>> semangat untuk berBLOG.

8.Ramai yang berkata :
>> beauty is in the eyes of the beholder.. but.. in reality?? kurus=cantik? huhu..

9.Makna nama saya :
>> cahaya yang memelihara [keamanan? anak?!!]

10.Cinta itu adalah :
>>satu rasa yang membuatkan rama2 berterbangan di dalam perut. hahah..[direct translation neh]

11.Di suatu tempat, seseorang sedang :
>>berharap blog ini di update.
12.Saya akan cuba :
>> jawab soalan2 ni sampai habes..

13.Ayat SELAMANYA membawa maksud :
>> selamanya tu PERKATAAN, bukan AYAT.

14.Telefon bimbit saya :
>>second hand, dan ianya dibeli di jepun oleh mizot..

15.Bila saya terjaga dari tidur :
>> tunggu alarm 6.30 bunyi..[usually terjaga awal]..chewah~

16.Saya paling meluat apabila :
>> seriously cant think of one right now. baikkah daku??

17.Pesta/Parti adalah :
>> hingar bingar,imho. which i don't really fancy.

18.Haiwan yang paling comel yang saya pernah temui ialah :
>>ikan-ikan di pulau redang.

19.Peringkat umur yang paling menyeronokkan bagi saya ialah :
>> 16.form four.enough said. ;)

20.Hari ini :
>> students saya exam bahasa inggeris. dan ada yang dapat full marks utk mcq. yay!

21.Malam ini saya akan :
>> masak dan tengok tv seorang diri.

22.Esok pula saya akan :
>> ke sekolah untuk kelas tambahan..

23.Saya betul-betul inginkan :
>> percutian di Seoul tahun depan menjadi kenyataan.

24.Ketika anda lihat wajah anda di hadapan cermin pagi ini :
>> [dalam hati berkata] wah, jerawat itu mesti di cover!

25.Pusat membeli-belah atau arked permainan :
>>apa kes arked?? shopping complex of kosss..

26.Makanan Barat atau Jepun :
>> jepun

27.Bilik yang terang atau gelap:
>> gelap.

28.Makanan segera adalah :
>> tak elok untuk kesihatan

29.Ayat terakhir yang anda katakan pada seseorang?
>>"kelas Sabtu ni, pukul 9 sampai 11,eh?!"

30.Siapa yang anda nak Tag?
>> kalau nak jawab silakan...

p/s: thanks for your thoughts, miss B!! miss you lots!!

Saturday, May 12, 2012

not quite, but still alright.

i always hear or read that people say Kelantan is under developed. and that the rakyat is poor.. [??! did they check EVERY house in Kelantan or what?!!].. on what basis that claim was made, i'm not so sure. and how do they define a developed state, remains a question. to me, you have to come here and judge for yourself. we might not have those skyscrapers like KL here in Kota Bharu. or public transport systems like monorail,LRT et cetera, we don't have them. but imho, everything that we have here is enough. at least i can get what i want. those simple stuff that you thought you won't find in KB, is here already..

these are basically what shambie and i found during our 'weekly date' last weekend.

sushi? no problem. even though you won't have the luxury of eating in Sushi King, you still get to eat sushi. not as delicious, but the taste is acceptable. at least en par with Jusco's sushi [a must whenever i go to Maluri].. :D

and to our excitement, me and my 'girlfriend' Shambie found a stall that sells takoyaki. yahoo!! takoyaki, simply means grilled octopus is a famous Japanese street food and to find it in KB is just so satisfying. [wikipedia].

for some western food earlier that afternoon, we head for London Fish Tales.. [miss b, this is the 'closest' to London that i can get.. *lol*].. the food was simple [we only ate fish and chips and fried shrimp]..yet they are so yummy. especially the shrimp.

and for desert, there is Secret Recipe nearby for their oh-so-delicious cakes or Big Apple Donuts.. my, their donuts are fingerlickingly good! we didn't eat any cakes or donuts though, since the takoyaki made us full.

the best that day was of course, the fish massage that we get right after lunch. yeah, definitely not the same as the Fish Spa that you can find in Pavillion KL, but the fish are somewhat the same.

for rm18, our feet got massaged [or shall i say, 'EATEN' by the fish] for half an hour.. it's quite ticklish at first, but you'll get used to it in no time. felt as if you get minor electric shock whenever the fish suck the dead cells off your feet. the fish didn't actually bit our feet, but more like 'kissed' our feet. and with each 'kiss' we felt the shock. so imagine with that many fish all over your ticklish it would be.. :)

oh, that's yours truly's feet in the picture,btw. that's one helluva fish, right? shambie didn't get that much. so what did that indicates? hahahaha. my feet got a lot more dead cells than hers!! dang! an exciting experience it was that we decided to have another visit there to get our feet massaged.

after the 'date' we came to a conclusion that you don't need to go to KL or other 'more developed' cities to experience or get any interesting stuff when everything's right in front of you now. no matter how 'mundur' people say Kelantan is, at least in our point of view, it is the contrary. apart from a cinema, Kelantan has everything that we need. hehhehe.. [with a cinema, we'll have no more wish. everything is complete,then.].. lol.

lastly, if we 'developed' and be the same like KL or JB, where's the uniqueness then? people have always been flocking to Kelantan because they say we have quality stuff here yet with very reasonable price. i.e., gold jewelleries, batik sutera, batik sarung, tudung bawal et cetera.. i don't have proof of that, but according to my friends [not Kelantanese], it is the truth. so, i like Kelantan as it is now. whatever negative remarks people give, at least to me, it's special.

a patriotic entry, don't you think? *lol*

to shambie: babe,can't wait for our rendezvous this weekend!! hehe

Monday, May 7, 2012



At 2.31 a.m this morning, my brain suddenly woke me up.
You see, before I went to sleep last night [11p.m approx.] I did a mental reminder to wake up at 2.30 a.m and finish my work.
[Plus I had not ironed my baju kurung+tudung for school the next day {today}.]
Alhamdulillah, it worked.
No alarm clock or handphone.
I woke up, got my baju kurung+tudung ironed while watching Astro AEC.
Then, I made a cup of coffee and switched on my laptop.
I had to make the pamphlet/brochure/leaflet for today's Mesyuarat PIBG.
By 4.30 a.m I finished my work,but my eyes felt damn fresh..[the effect of Pe'rl cafe..]
So,.. alone, I watched "the Nanny" for one whole hour @ the Hallmark channel.
[then my imaginations went wild.. the thought of having a husband like Mr Sheffield seemed like a good idea at that time. LOL. Tall, handsome and richie rich!]

Alas, I was asleep again at 6a.m.
About 15 minutes after azan Subuh.
I was asleep for only 20 minutes but during that 20 minutes I had a dream.
I dreamed about my friends.
There were Shaxu, Jasara, Inamadz, Shambie, Aboon and a few others that I couldn't recall.
We were @ a restaurant, similar to MidValley's Chili's if I'm not mistaken.
And what were we doing there?
Besides getting the latest 'gossip' we were also...


WTH, kan?

After a while, there were some who 'showed up' for us.
Among those who were there, I could remember vividly two people.

1. Joe Flizzow from TooPhat
2. MTV's Vj Colby

Seriously, I'm not quite sure the significance of both Joe and Colby to me.
I'm definitely not a hip-hop fan, and I personally prefer StarWorld&Discovery Channel rather than MTV.
[but I've to admit Vj Colby caught my eyes-lah.]

But for my own dissappointment, the dream ended quite abruptly.
I didn't get to see/hear us recording our 'oh-so-merdu' voices.

From this dream, I came to a conclusion.

[Especially these girls..]

And Cik Asni, I think I'd miss you the most nanti. ;)


Friday, May 4, 2012



Just finished my class with my Year 6 kids.
Well, today I think my patience goes up way beyond the limit.
Why? Read below.
The scenes happen in the same day (which is today-lah).

Scene 1:

TeacherFizzy: I want you to take out the homework that I asked you to do. Put up your hands those who didn't finish that homework.

(almost half of the class put up their hands.)

TeacherFizzy: Was it that hard?I only asked you to write 10 SIMPLE sentences using words that I had already given you the meanings. And we have gone through the words a few times already!

Those who didn't finish their homework, I want you to get out of my class. Get out! I don't have time for those who are not interested in learning.

(students obidiently [and happily] got out of the class.)

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Scene 2:

TeacherFizzy: I want each of you to share your sentences with your friends, write it on the board. 1 sentence for 1 person.

(the remaining students began writing on the board.)

TeacherFizzy: "Just now, I drew my mother and father picture." Amer, what do you want to say here actually? 'Saya lukis gambar ibu bapa saya', atau 'saya melukis gambar untuk ibu bapa saya'?

(no answer.)

TeacherFizzy: Do you hear me? Apa maksud ayat yang awak tulis ni? Come on, your wrote it yourself, mesti la tahu maksud kan? Saya bukan marah, saya nak tahu apa yang awak cuba maksudkan lepas tu saya akan betulkan lah.

(still no answer, he didn't even look at me when I asked him.)

TeacherFizzy: Amer!! Saya dah cakap BM ni. Faham tak soalan saya? Saya cuma nak tahu maksud ayat awak ni. Bukan saya kata ayat awak salah. Bila dah tahu apa yang awak cuba sampaikan, baru saya boleh betulkan mana-mana yang patut. Kalau tak, jadi lain pulak. Awak akan salah faham nanti!

(he remained silent and my body started shaking, tears suddenly filled my eyes.)

TeacherFizzy: MasyaAllah! Answer me, Amer. Is it that hard to understand my question? Itu ayat yang awak buat sendiri, bukan ayat yang saya bagi. So you MUST know the meaning kan?

(tears rolled down my cheek by now..)

Amer: "Saya melukis gambar ibu bapa saya."

TeacherFizzy: There!!! Boleh pun jawab. Itu lah yang saya tanya dari tadi lagi. That's what I want to hear. Kenapa dari tadi awak tak bagi maksud tu? Nak saya menangis dulu baru awak nak jawab? So, your sentence should be like this: " Just now, I drew a picture of my mother and father."

(after a bit of 'lecture', the class continue as usual.)


Yeah, I cried in front of my students.
The first time this year.
Does that make me a bad teacher?
I do sound like one, don't I?



Wednesday, April 11, 2012



I think my life is so disorganized right now.
I've got a pile of work that needs to be done a.s.a.p.
Reports, worksheets, timetables..
And worse, tomorrow we're having a meeting with the parents regarding the exam results [which by the way can't be proud of at all!]
I can't see the importance of having this kind of meeting when most of the parents don't really care whether their children come to school or not.
Shheeeeesh!! Blame my BAD time management for this!
I tend to do work at the last minutes or close to deadlines.
Yeah, righttt!! Hehehehehe..

And there's this problem with my house mate.
I think she's just been swindled by her boyfriend [who used to be our school Pak Guard -not that it matters.. LOL]
Actually I'm in a dilemma right now.. whether to tell her family or just keep my mouth shut.
Maybe I should mind my own 'unfinished' business, but then I can't stop thinking how big of a fool she has been since they became a couple.

Let's analyze her situation:

She broke her engagement with her fiance (read here) a few months back and almost right after that the Pak Guard [PG] came into the picture.
He 'took her heart away' lah konon-kononnya.
I don't have any problem with what he does for a living, so long as it's HALAL, then again his stories or shall I say 'tales' to my house mate Y were so stupidly unbelievable.
What sort of stories? Here are some, have fun laughing your heads off!
Mind you guys these were what he told Y on their first so-called date:-

-PG told Y that when he was working in KL he used to drive [by that he meant used to have..] all sorts of cars Perdana V6 lah, Honda lah.. I wonder why he only drives a second hand Wira when he decided to come back to his kampung.

-PG said he used to be an assistant architect. [Wow!] And he was the one who designed the PM's house [wow! wow! and WOWW!!]. Upon hearing this from Y, I started to feel very uneasy with this PG guy. That is sooooooo stupid, don't you think? If you're that successful then why on earth did you have to come work in a kampung as a guard? You can do that in KL lah if you want! Aiyoo!

-PG also said he had 20-30k in his savings and that he needn't any loan to make a house for his parents. I don't see any relevance in telling anyone how much [or little] I have in my savings. And during the first meeting some more! That's just simply ridiculous.

-PG received an offer from PDRM,but he was not interested to join the force. Then, he got an offer from MAS [to receive trainings for pilot] but he declined. He said he's not so keen in working under somebody's order. According to him, he's his own boss. Yikes! What sort of a lie was that? If you 'really' got an offer from PDRM/MAS, you must've applied for the post lah kan in the first place? They aren't that stupid to offer you a job just like that! And Y actually believed this!

+ + +

There are more, but I don't want to waste more of my time just to write about PG.
The most important thing is what Y is doing now.


And so much to my own 'bewilderment', she's going to share the property with PG.
Ha ha ha. That's just plain idiot, kan?
And she said PG's going to apply a loan for the other half of it [which I doubt it'll be granted because he's jobless now. yupp, he quit his job as our school guard.]
I pity Y, because it's only her second year working yet she's already thinking of getting such a huge loan. And not for herself, even..
That PG guys is obviously a CON, right?
And either Y is totally in love to believe such words from PG or she's stupid, period.
Another take is that perhaps she's been bewitched by a 'love/money' spell?

Please, tell me what you think.
Or better still, tell me what do you think I have to do to help Y.

Oh, and did I tell you last week she didn't come home for a night and she told me she had a stomach ache and had to stay at her parents'?
It's no surprise to know that I've been conned too, by Miss Y herself.
It turns out she was in Kuala Terengganu with PG until very late that night and was afraid to go home at that hour.
So they took turns to sleep in her car.
La la la... can you believe that???

Love is after all,.... BLIND!


Friday, April 6, 2012


I feel so guilty..
So guilty I almost cried..
Felt so bad for being the curious me.
And even worse for knowing things I shouldn't have..
But the worst is to know that I've made you sad.

To that person..
[ you know who you are..]
I look up to you more than anyone else.
'Seeing' you making others happy and for all I know you're hurt inside.
Please find a spot in your heart to forgive me.
For being such a jerk and causing you discomfort.

I'm so sorry~


like i said, its nobodys fault..
so no need to feel sad, guilty, apologize etc..
i have no reason to be mad..

That's how I felt nonetheless.
I know you're not angry, but like 'anonymous' said, perhaps I've made you uncomfortable/uneasy with what happened.
Ermmm..thanks for leaving a note.
I do feel a little better. :|