not quite, but still alright.

i always hear or read that people say Kelantan is under developed. and that the rakyat is poor.. [??! did they check EVERY house in Kelantan or what?!!].. on what basis that claim was made, i'm not so sure. and how do they define a developed state, remains a question. to me, you have to come here and judge for yourself. we might not have those skyscrapers like KL here in Kota Bharu. or public transport systems like monorail,LRT et cetera, we don't have them. but imho, everything that we have here is enough. at least i can get what i want. those simple stuff that you thought you won't find in KB, is here already..

these are basically what shambie and i found during our 'weekly date' last weekend.

sushi? no problem. even though you won't have the luxury of eating in Sushi King, you still get to eat sushi. not as delicious, but the taste is acceptable. at least en par with Jusco's sushi [a must whenever i go to Maluri].. :D

and to our excitement, me and my 'girlfriend' Shambie found a stall that sells takoyaki. yahoo!! takoyaki, simply means grilled octopus is a famous Japanese street food and to find it in KB is just so satisfying. [wikipedia].



for some western food earlier that afternoon, we head for London Fish Tales.. [miss b, this is the 'closest' to London that i can get.. *lol*].. the food was simple [we only ate fish and chips and fried shrimp]..yet they are so yummy. especially the shrimp.

and for desert, there is Secret Recipe nearby for their oh-so-delicious cakes or Big Apple Donuts.. my, their donuts are fingerlickingly good! we didn't eat any cakes or donuts though, since the takoyaki made us full.



the best that day was of course, the fish massage that we get right after lunch. yeah, definitely not the same as the Fish Spa that you can find in Pavillion KL, but the fish are somewhat the same.

for rm18, our feet got massaged [or shall i say, 'EATEN' by the fish] for half an hour.. it's quite ticklish at first, but you'll get used to it in no time. felt as if you get minor electric shock whenever the fish suck the dead cells off your feet. the fish didn't actually bit our feet, but more like 'kissed' our feet. and with each 'kiss' we felt the shock. so imagine with that many fish all over your feet..how ticklish it would be.. :)

oh, that's yours truly's feet in the picture,btw. that's one helluva fish, right? shambie didn't get that much. so what did that indicates? hahahaha. my feet got a lot more dead cells than hers!! dang! an exciting experience it was that we decided to have another visit there to get our feet massaged.


after the 'date' we came to a conclusion that you don't need to go to KL or other 'more developed' cities to experience or get any interesting stuff when everything's right in front of you now. no matter how 'mundur' people say Kelantan is, at least in our point of view, it is the contrary. apart from a cinema, Kelantan has everything that we need. hehhehe.. [with a cinema, we'll have no more wish. everything is complete,then.].. lol.

lastly, if we 'developed' and be the same like KL or JB, where's the uniqueness then? people have always been flocking to Kelantan because they say we have quality stuff here yet with very reasonable price. i.e., gold jewelleries, batik sutera, batik sarung, tudung bawal et cetera.. i don't have proof of that, but according to my friends [not Kelantanese], it is the truth. so, i like Kelantan as it is now. whatever negative remarks people give, at least to me, it's special.

a patriotic entry, don't you think? *lol*

to shambie: babe,can't wait for our rendezvous this weekend!! hehe

Dream.

Assalamualaykum~

At 2.31 a.m this morning, my brain suddenly woke me up.
You see, before I went to sleep last night [11p.m approx.] I did a mental reminder to wake up at 2.30 a.m and finish my work.
[Plus I had not ironed my baju kurung+tudung for school the next day {today}.]
Alhamdulillah, it worked.
No alarm clock or handphone.
I woke up, got my baju kurung+tudung ironed while watching Astro AEC.
Then, I made a cup of coffee and switched on my laptop.
I had to make the pamphlet/brochure/leaflet for today's Mesyuarat PIBG.
By 4.30 a.m I finished my work,but my eyes felt damn fresh..[the effect of Pe'rl cafe..]
So,.. alone, I watched "the Nanny" for one whole hour @ the Hallmark channel.
[then my imaginations went wild.. the thought of having a husband like Mr Sheffield seemed like a good idea at that time. LOL. Tall, handsome and richie rich!]

Alas, I was asleep again at 6a.m.
About 15 minutes after azan Subuh.
I was asleep for only 20 minutes but during that 20 minutes I had a dream.
I dreamed about my friends.
There were Shaxu, Jasara, Inamadz, Shambie, Aboon and a few others that I couldn't recall.
We were @ a restaurant, similar to MidValley's Chili's if I'm not mistaken.
And what were we doing there?
Besides getting the latest 'gossip' we were also...

WAITING FOR SOME PEOPLE FROM SOME RECORDING STUDIOS
TO RECORD OUR BATCH SONG..

WTH, kan?
[RollingOnTheFloorLaughing]

After a while, there were some who 'showed up' for us.
Among those who were there, I could remember vividly two people.

1. Joe Flizzow from TooPhat
2. MTV's Vj Colby

Seriously, I'm not quite sure the significance of both Joe and Colby to me.
I'm definitely not a hip-hop fan, and I personally prefer StarWorld&Discovery Channel rather than MTV.
[but I've to admit Vj Colby caught my eyes-lah.]
But for my own dissappointment, the dream ended quite abruptly.
I didn't get to see/hear us recording our 'oh-so-merdu' voices.
Hahahahahahaha..

From this dream, I came to a conclusion.

I MISS MY FRIENDS.
[Especially these girls..]

And Cik Asni, I think I'd miss you the most nanti. ;)

Wassalam~

Patient!

Assalamualaykum.

Just finished my class with my Year 6 kids.
Well, today I think my patience goes up way beyond the limit.
Why? Read below.
The scenes happen in the same day (which is today-lah).

+++++++++++

Scene 1:

TeacherFizzy: I want you to take out the homework that I asked you to do. Put up your hands those who didn't finish that homework.

(almost half of the class put up their hands.)

TeacherFizzy: Was it that hard?I only asked you to write 10 SIMPLE sentences using words that I had already given you the meanings. And we have gone through the words a few times already!

Those who didn't finish their homework, I want you to get out of my class. Get out! I don't have time for those who are not interested in learning.

(students obidiently [and happily] got out of the class.)

* * *

Scene 2:

TeacherFizzy: I want each of you to share your sentences with your friends, write it on the board. 1 sentence for 1 person.

(the remaining students began writing on the board.)

TeacherFizzy: "Just now, I drew my mother and father picture." Amer, what do you want to say here actually? 'Saya lukis gambar ibu bapa saya', atau 'saya melukis gambar untuk ibu bapa saya'?

(no answer.)

TeacherFizzy: Do you hear me? Apa maksud ayat yang awak tulis ni? Come on, your wrote it yourself, mesti la tahu maksud kan? Saya bukan marah, saya nak tahu apa yang awak cuba maksudkan lepas tu saya akan betulkan lah.

(still no answer, he didn't even look at me when I asked him.)

TeacherFizzy: Amer!! Saya dah cakap BM ni. Faham tak soalan saya? Saya cuma nak tahu maksud ayat awak ni. Bukan saya kata ayat awak salah. Bila dah tahu apa yang awak cuba sampaikan, baru saya boleh betulkan mana-mana yang patut. Kalau tak, jadi lain pulak. Awak akan salah faham nanti!

(he remained silent and my body started shaking, tears suddenly filled my eyes.)

TeacherFizzy: MasyaAllah! Answer me, Amer. Is it that hard to understand my question? Itu ayat yang awak buat sendiri, bukan ayat yang saya bagi. So you MUST know the meaning kan?

(tears rolled down my cheek by now..)

Amer: "Saya melukis gambar ibu bapa saya."

TeacherFizzy: There!!! Boleh pun jawab. Itu lah yang saya tanya dari tadi lagi. That's what I want to hear. Kenapa dari tadi awak tak bagi maksud tu? Nak saya menangis dulu baru awak nak jawab? So, your sentence should be like this: " Just now, I drew a picture of my mother and father."

(after a bit of 'lecture', the class continue as usual.)

+++++++++

Yeah, I cried in front of my students.
The first time this year.
Does that make me a bad teacher?
I do sound like one, don't I?

Sigh~

Wassalam.

Sigh~

Assalamualaykum..

I think my life is so disorganized right now.
I've got a pile of work that needs to be done a.s.a.p.
Reports, worksheets, timetables..
And worse, tomorrow we're having a meeting with the parents regarding the exam results [which by the way can't be proud of at all!]
I can't see the importance of having this kind of meeting when most of the parents don't really care whether their children come to school or not.
Shheeeeesh!! Blame my BAD time management for this!
I tend to do work at the last minutes or close to deadlines.
[my 'motto': "I WORK BEST UNDER PRESSURE"]
Yeah, righttt!! Hehehehehe..

And there's this problem with my house mate.
I think she's just been swindled by her boyfriend [who used to be our school Pak Guard -not that it matters.. LOL]
Actually I'm in a dilemma right now.. whether to tell her family or just keep my mouth shut.
Maybe I should mind my own 'unfinished' business, but then I can't stop thinking how big of a fool she has been since they became a couple.

Let's analyze her situation:

She broke her engagement with her fiance (read here) a few months back and almost right after that the Pak Guard [PG] came into the picture.
He 'took her heart away' lah konon-kononnya.
I don't have any problem with what he does for a living, so long as it's HALAL, then again his stories or shall I say 'tales' to my house mate Y were so stupidly unbelievable.
What sort of stories? Here are some, have fun laughing your heads off!
Mind you guys these were what he told Y on their first so-called date:-

-PG told Y that when he was working in KL he used to drive [by that he meant used to have..] all sorts of cars Perdana V6 lah, Honda lah.. I wonder why he only drives a second hand Wira when he decided to come back to his kampung.

-PG said he used to be an assistant architect. [Wow!] And he was the one who designed the PM's house [wow! wow! and WOWW!!]. Upon hearing this from Y, I started to feel very uneasy with this PG guy. That is sooooooo stupid, don't you think? If you're that successful then why on earth did you have to come work in a kampung as a guard? You can do that in KL lah if you want! Aiyoo!

-PG also said he had 20-30k in his savings and that he needn't any loan to make a house for his parents. I don't see any relevance in telling anyone how much [or little] I have in my savings. And during the first meeting some more! That's just simply ridiculous.

-PG received an offer from PDRM,but he was not interested to join the force. Then, he got an offer from MAS [to receive trainings for pilot] but he declined. He said he's not so keen in working under somebody's order. According to him, he's his own boss. Yikes! What sort of a lie was that? If you 'really' got an offer from PDRM/MAS, you must've applied for the post lah kan in the first place? They aren't that stupid to offer you a job just like that! And Y actually believed this!

+ + +

There are more, but I don't want to waste more of my time just to write about PG.
The most important thing is what Y is doing now.

SHE'S APPLYING FOR A LOAN TO BUY SOME PROPERTY FOR 100K!!

And so much to my own 'bewilderment', she's going to share the property with PG.
Ha ha ha. That's just plain idiot, kan?
And she said PG's going to apply a loan for the other half of it [which I doubt it'll be granted because he's jobless now. yupp, he quit his job as our school guard.]
I pity Y, because it's only her second year working yet she's already thinking of getting such a huge loan. And not for herself, even..
That PG guys is obviously a CON, right?
And either Y is totally in love to believe such words from PG or she's stupid, period.
Another take is that perhaps she's been bewitched by a 'love/money' spell?

Please, tell me what you think.
Or better still, tell me what do you think I have to do to help Y.

Oh, and did I tell you last week she didn't come home for a night and she told me she had a stomach ache and had to stay at her parents'?
It's no surprise to know that I've been conned too, by Miss Y herself.
It turns out she was in Kuala Terengganu with PG until very late that night and was afraid to go home at that hour.
So they took turns to sleep in her car.
La la la... can you believe that???

Love is after all,.... BLIND!

Wassalam~

Guilty!!

I feel so guilty..
So guilty I almost cried..
Felt so bad for being the curious me.
And even worse for knowing things I shouldn't have..
But the worst is to know that I've made you sad.

To that person..
[ you know who you are..]
I look up to you more than anyone else.
'Seeing' you making others happy and for all I know you're hurt inside.
Please find a spot in your heart to forgive me.
For being such a jerk and causing you discomfort.

I'm so sorry~

_______________________________________

fizzy..
like i said, its nobodys fault..
so no need to feel sad, guilty, apologize etc..
i have no reason to be mad..
:)

That's how I felt nonetheless.
I know you're not angry, but like 'anonymous' said, perhaps I've made you uncomfortable/uneasy with what happened.
Ermmm..thanks for leaving a note.
I do feel a little better. :|

2 sen.

Assalamualaykum.

First of all,let me confess.
I'm not a Pitt fan.
Or a Pitt-Jolie fan, for that matter.
But I like this picture.



Why do I like this picture, you asked?
Because that's Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie for Heaven's sake.
And they're riding on a bike similar to what those Mat Rempits are doing their stupid stunts with.
No, I won't go on and nag about the Rempits now.
Truth be told, when I first saw the picture in our local newspaper yesterday it touched my heart.
It showed me the simple side of the multimillionaire actors.
The humbleness, their modesty.
(Yeah, maybe the bodyguards were tailing them, but heck! That's not the point.]

After 'admiring' the photo, I laughed.
Why? [No, I'm not insane. I'll get to my point later.]

I was comparing our local entertainment artists [singers and actors] with the Hollywood ones.
Don't you think we're becoming more and more like them?
When I said 'we',I was referring to our Malaysian artists.
Just look at how the female ones dressed nowadays.
I bet you can't find one that would wear a 'selipar Jepun' in public like Jolie did. He he he.
In some occasions, when there were local and international artists in them, our Malaysian artists outdid the international ones in terms of bearing more skin rather than covering them.
[I actually saw one in a newspaper, but couldn't find it in the net for me to share with you.Even if I did, I'd smudge the face so that none can tell who was it.LOL]
Sigh~

The recent happenings were even more dissappointing pour moi.
Some of the artists had the most glamorous so-called wedding of the year and the next thing you hear, the couple is already filing a divorce.
What a waste of money. Bet the orphans could use it for a better cause.
In my humble opinion, this isn't a healthy thing to do.
Then again, we don't really know what happen in their relationship so we can't comment much, can we?

The world is changing.
And Malaysia is globalized faster and faster.
I'm not saying that the artists are all BAD EXAMPLES [to our youth especially].
I do look up to some that have done really well in their career.
But even if the world is changing, we must not forget our roots, right?

I'm being bias, I know.
Just my 2 sen worth of opinion-lah.
No hard feelings, everyone..

Pitt is gorgeous, isn't he?
But not as handsome as my Redford [yet].

Wassalam.

*Picture taken from Chinadaily.com

Letting out & Letting Go

these are the dilemmas i'm having right now. well, not actually dilemmas, they are just the things that i should do, but i think i should not. things regarding 2 of the most important people in my life. i will not go and elaborate further about who they are. the rest is up to your imagination(s). this entry is a follow up of my 'dream' or shall i say 'gangguan syaitan' [because i slept after subuh.]

the first one is about letting out what i truly think to someone. lately, he's being acting extremely weird. weird for his age, weird for his personality. i'm not sure whether weird is the correct word to use, but in short, he's not what he used to be. people closest to me are suffering right now because of his attitude. i cried a bucket when i first heard of his unlikely actions.in my dream, i let out what i felt in his face.he was so shocked, seeing my bold move. i, as everyone knows, am very introvert when it comes to letting out my feelings. i hid what i felt deep inside, no one could ever know it. but in that dream, i was brave enough to stand up and just shout to his ears what i felt. yes, i was satisfied. but in real life, i still don't know whether that's the appropriate thing to do. if i do that, i would be regarded as someone who does not respect the person that should always be respected. this story, only one person knows the details. and i was so grateful i decided to tell that person about it. in a way, i did let out my feelings to someone, even though not to the one i should let it out to. sigh~

next is the classic case of letting go of someone that you know is not meant for you. my closest friends should have no problem relating this story as you guys should know who i'm referring to. the thing is that, in that same dream, i confessed to him that i like(d) him these past 9 years. well, come to think of it, i think this is also a case of letting out my feelings. i think i have managed to let go of him already, out of my heart, but i can't seem to be satisfied without telling him what i used to feel. he's getting married in less than a month, and confessing to him after all these years might seem super-weird!! but i mean no harm. in fact, by telling him about it, i don't think it will change anything. well, maybe i won't be able to face him after this (malu, ok?!), but at the very least, i've told him the truth. i still can remember vividly the 'email' i wrote to him in that dream..[yes, i emailed him, didn't tell him in person!!]..hehehhe..even in that dream, i still malu. still didn't have the courage to tell him face to face or over the phone, even in a dream!!. LOL. erkkk..come to think of it, i haven't seen him (in person) ever since he went abroad. the last time i saw him, i think, was when i sent him @the airport back in '02. gosh!! i was only 19 in '02!! huhuhuhu..

am i even making any sense by writing this? or did i make you readers 'geram' with my attitude that doesn't want to let out what i really and truly feel? hehehehe.. this is me being me. i suffer alone.